For a while now, longer than I’d like to admit(because I have not listened); I’ve felt Jesus reminding me..to “come to Him.”, to “come and drink”, “lay my burdens down”, “come boldy before the thrown of grace”…abide..eat….dine.
He’s been reminding me that it is IN HIM I find my strength, my answers, my spiritual cravings satisfied.
He likewise has showed me how I forgot about “us.” Me and Him. That shortly after returning to Him, I took off running…I got busy in what I thought were the things necessary to be a devout believer and follower.
Yet I forgot Him..us.
I got busy pursuing my gifts, my “ministry”. Looking for any and every opportunity to prove myself..to serve..
I became so focused on family..house and home(meaning church)..that I skipped the very important honey moon stage. That vital part and intimate process of getting to know one another.
Consumed with the other.
Learning each other.
Though I of course am fully known; He sees something very valuable in the process of coming to know one another better: He shows us who He is, who we are to Him…and who we are together.
So busy proving myself…all along Jesus was wanting to prove Himself to me: His love, His care, His desire and devotion. His capability to sustain and provide. That,” you can trust Me, I will lead, guide, protect, and fend for you”..type of knowledge that only comes through intimacy; and that is essential to any healthy relationship.
Along the way, I’ve also gotten into some relatively good habits. Yet, He’s shown me how I’ve allowed even these very good things, to take a position in my life that He was meant to hold.
I have been devoted to my pursuit of Him…but it’s all been things ASSOCIATED with Him, more than He, Himself. I’ve magnified the things about Him..and I’ve kind of neglected Him.
Just as Martha got busy around the house, while Mary chose what was needed(Jesus); I too have gotten busy with things that bear His image, all the while leaving Him waiting.
I’ve turned to alternative voices, that indeed represent Him: vast amounts of books, sermons, podcasts, blogs, people, places and things..when He’s been beckoning me “to come”….all along.
Now there is great worth in all these other things! There really is! But, I have allowed them to take His place in a sense. I’ve sold myself short! These things are great supplements..but they were never meant to take the leading role. And if I’m being honest, that’s what they’ve done in my case.
There are so many voices tied up in these things. So many varying voices at that. None are one in the same. Some may agree, or travel along similar veins; but if you are like me…sometimes too much info is just that: Too much. It can cause more confusion than clarity.
It’s like a group of people telling you how to get to the castle..and there the Prince is, willing and ready to take you Himself. Yet we can ignore that AMAZING PRIVILEGE, for lesser things.
It’s crazy because when I first came to Christ, before my long stent in prodigal land..I felt closer to Him. I heard from Him more. I felt Him often..it was Him I sought.
Now this was way before social media and all the things that are now so readily available to distract us; so that was helpful. But then, I actually met WITH Him. Not His representatives. And sometimes I forget that not all of His representatives are REALLY representing Him. Whether that be intentional or not.
It’s like I forget He is indeed a living God! He speaks! He moves! He is near! He is here! I just need to acknowledge that fact..and listen. Walk with Him…talk with Him. Get IN HIS presence.
The equivalence of this all is like me playing with my son’s toys, but not him. Or if I were married, reading my husband’s work material or listening to his friends talk about him..while all the while I have him there to personally engage with. Or even going onto Facebook or Instagram to get to know a good friend; yet rarely spending time with them.
I was made for more!
I was made to come…to be…to see..Him.
“Come, everyone who thirsts, come to the waters; and he who has no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without price. Why do you spend your money for that which is not bread, and your labor for that which does not satisfy? Listen diligently to me, and eat what is good, and delight yourselves in rich food. Incline your ear, and come to me; hear, that your soul may live; and I will make with you an everlasting covenant, my steadfast, sure love for David.Isaiah 55:1-3 ESV.
“You search the Scriptures because you think that in them you have eternal life; and it is they that bear witness about me, yet you refuse to come to me that you may have life.” John 5:39-40 ESV