If there is one thing I can say with full conscience confidence..
Is that I have saught You diligently.
Like the Hound Of Heaven in my own sense..I’ve been in pursuit of You..
I have been discouraged, but never forsaken.
I’ve been mistaken, but You never have left me.
I may have been blinded, but You yet promise to give sight back to me..
Help my unbelief..
Yet it’s You, I consistently, constantly, whether semi-conscience, conscience, or sub-consciously…I have not stopped searching for
Groping for in the dark..
Hungry for You..
Even my anger toward You being a way of expressing my passion for You..
I’ve doubted many things, many people, many sayings..myself too
But if there is anythjng I can say is truth..
Lord, My God..I know with all my heart, I’ve saught diligently after You.