God what do you think of me now?
When I’m letting go and crazy, giving up and angry? Bitter, resentful, crying out, complaining?
What do you see in me? When I’m feeling selfish and don’t give a shit, about what I say and who’s offended by it.
I’m tired of trying. Of being holy and blameless. Of fighting the madness, inside me..it ravages..sadness..
I just want to run away. From everyone and everything. That expects of me this or that..
It feels like freedom to say..fuck all this..screw all that. I want to not care anymore….I want to