I have been on generic Zoloft now since getting prego. If one has read any of my previous posts, they might have seen how life has been like hell for me, both mentally and emotionally. I have always struggled with depression and anxiety, but the anxiety has been so intense it almost borderlines psychosis. To the point I was starting to except and believe I was losing it: I was beginning to believe I had a condition that was very hard to treat and maybe getting older and the stress of a new child at 35 was too much.
After leaving my pill bottle in the car one night and not wanting to get out in the cold to get it, I missed a dose. I have now missed 3 doses.
I haven’t felt this human and sane in months. Maybe even close to a year.
My son is still nursing at night. We both have struggled with actually sleeping through entire nights since he was born. These last 3 nights, we have slept like one would expect to sleep. Normal. Good, deep, non-restless.
It might sound cheesy, but I almost want to cry thinking about how good I feel. So well rested. It has been THAT long. It also makes me sad thinking that if this was indeed my problem this whole time, how simple a solution.
All the pain. All the weariness and sleepless nights, and the horrible attitudes and actions that came with it all. I have been one wearied soul. In a dark abyss, thinking I was gonna lose it all due to my own inability to cope with the chaos of normal life.
I’ve blamed it on myself, my son, whoever.
Now, I get that it’s only been 3 days. But man the difference! I hope this is all more than wishful thinking; some placebo, mind thing. I had did some research, digging into others reviews and the majority have been positive. But, there are many that have also had severe symptoms like me.
I’ve actually slept 3 nights in a row now!! Ugh, I can’t get over that. That’s how bad it’s been. I wonder if my son’s nursing had also effected his sleep? The med getting to him too? Because like I said, he’s never slept better either.
Again, I was not on this until getting prego. I was giving this as a “safe” alternative in place of a mild anxiety med I had been on for several months beforehand. So things were much more tolerable (life’s hell and my own issues) before I even had to be placed on it.
Man I hope I have found a solution 🙏.