Karma Sowing Seed

I've come along way from where I was, and I'm still very much undone. One of the many lessons I've been experiencing over the last few years, is the principle of sowing and reaping, or what some call karma. And I have found it very much alive and well! The unexpected thing I've found though, … Continue reading Karma Sowing Seed

The Right Thing To Do?

I catch my spiritual life being a lot more simpler lately. I have always tried to complicate it. Make it managed, controlled, systematic. But lately I find God telling me to , "just BE" anytime my mind gets to racing and I want to make Him and life more technical and doctrinal than He prob … Continue reading The Right Thing To Do?

Oh Faithful Church Folk.

Where have we sent people? After getting pregnant, I remember running into someone I had known from the church system I had originally came to Christ in. This system is very legalistic. You do. Or you don't. I remember she asked me, was I going back to church? Was I attending somewhere? She was not … Continue reading Oh Faithful Church Folk.

Who do you say that I am?

Life has been crazy for me lately. Possibly more on the inside of me than anything; the outside chaos is just the product. Really though, I've been in self-pity mode. Crying "mercy", as if life has me pinned to the ground, arm contorted behind my back. I am in that run mode. Flight..screw the fight..it's … Continue reading Who do you say that I am?

Jesus and The Map

I sit back praying and asking Jesus about this map that I seen while in prayer a while back(see previous post); and this is the insight I've gained: The map in a sense, represents the world. Or one's quest to understand the world. And the things on the map represent life: the "stops" along the … Continue reading Jesus and The Map

Christians?

As I sit here and ask God, "what does abiding in You look like?" "What does not being conformed to this world look like?" It amazes me, how different His answers seem to be, compared to what I've been taught and told. From what I thought and expected. From how I've been. Almost everything has … Continue reading Christians?

Empty Calories (Spiritual).

For a while now, longer than I'd like to admit(because I have not listened); I've felt Jesus reminding me..to "come to Him.", to "come and drink", "lay my burdens down", "come boldy before the thrown of grace"...abide..eat....dine. He's been reminding me that it is IN HIM I find my strength, my answers, my spiritual cravings … Continue reading Empty Calories (Spiritual).

Right Where You Should Be.

There is nothing wrong with this season you are in. Though it feel like prison. Though you seem stuck and trapped. Though it feels like a wilderness; dry and fruitless. Though you believe there is no success, no movement...no gain..no covered ground..Oh..if you only knew!The upside down Kingdom! The subversive way! The... so unlike the … Continue reading Right Where You Should Be.

It’s Me Oh’Lord; Standing in the Need of Prayer!

Recently I had been pondering and praying about some behavior and attitude problems I have been struggling with. Specifically, ones that can express themselves in unhealthy ways, causing hurt to others. As I was considering these things I felt The Holy Spirit remind me of Peter's betrayal/denial of Christ; and how Jesus responded to it. … Continue reading It’s Me Oh’Lord; Standing in the Need of Prayer!

He Loves Your Ugly

I remember my last stent of darkness. Sadly is has been a familiar friend most of my life. But, it don't stick around like it use to..when The Light is here. When Jesus is welcomed. But there are times, when day becomes night again. Joy appears to be swallowed in fear...shame...insecurity..sin...giving up..and giving in. Hello..I'm … Continue reading He Loves Your Ugly

F@*# It ALL..that’s how I feel today..and maybe I will tmrw too.

For the past half-decade and some, I've been trying to be it all. The very best I can. The example for Christ, the mother who understands, the friend who only sees the best in others, despite my thoughts telling me otherwise. The good sister, daughter, employee, citizen..you name it. I've been policing my every thought, … Continue reading F@*# It ALL..that’s how I feel today..and maybe I will tmrw too.